Day 29 - In this past month, what have you learned
I’ve learnt that life is really just like a wheel, one day you’re on top, the next you’re at the bottom. Today you may be happy, two days later, you’ll be crying yourself to sleep. It’s how it works, it always has been. I’ve learnt that sometimes, you’ve got to give up pleasure for a bigger and brighter future. I have also learnt that every single thing that’s happened to me in the past, good or bad, have all added up to create the person that I am now at this very second. Bullshit happens every single day to every single person at every single place in this planet and what I’ve learnt is that, it is always up to you how to you’ll deal with it, how you’ll make a difference and how you’re going to live your life. I will always have a choice, just like you do. And it is up to me to see, feel, hear and make the right choice, all the time.
Day 28 - A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
(left - 2009 and right - 2010)
I think over the past year, I’ve really transformed a lot and in various ways too. I mean, I have more confidence in myself today than I used to and I dress differently as well. I take more risks when it comes to my look and the way that I dress than when I was 16. I don’t just wear jeans, a shirt and converse anymore, I wear more dresses, skirts, tights, etc. And I’ve also acknowledge the vintage side of myself that I’ve always had since I was 14, finally!
I’ve also understood what my passion in life is over the past year. Now, I know that Photography and Art is really what I want to do and focus on whereas a year ago, I was really uncertain. I have more knowledge about it than I used to and I know that I wouldn’t be any happier to be studying or doing another course.
Lifewise, I think I’m more mature and I take more responsibility nowadays, not everything, but you know, I’m getting there. Also, I’ve started to improve bad habits, mannerisms and stuff and slowly getting rid of them. And yea, overall, I think I am a better me than I was a year ago. ^_~
Day 27 - Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
I am doing this 30 day challenge because I rarely post anything nowadays and this keeps me from not posting anything. Besides, it’s a lot of fun and you get to share thoughts and stories about yourself. So yea, go figure! ^_~
Day 26 - What you think about your friends
They’re all unique in their own way. Some may be too cocky or weird or serious or funny. I mean, they’re jusy all so different from each other. See, I have a really wide variety of friends although most of them are in the Philippines. I love all of them like for real! And sometimes, I wish they were only a text message away but they aren’t anymore. But ah well, life goes on! What I’m really glad about though is that we still get to talk every now and again online, not often, but once in a while is good enough for me. ^_~
Day 25 - What I would find in your bag
Normally, you’d find my camera (canon 1000D); my make up bag that contains my powder foundation, brush, concealer, blusher, lipgloss and liquid eyeliner; my id badge for college; my pencil case that contains a whole lot of pens, pencils and brushes; sanitizer; painkillers; umbrella; keys; hairbrush; wallet; bus pass; and some notes or handouts from college. So yea, I think that’s it. ^_~
We went for a trek/location scouting two days ago at this place and prior to going, I thought the place was just like a pond with trees around it. I was completely wrong. The place was atleast ten hectares wide and it was amazingly beautiful except for the fact that it was very muddy. But I think it would be absolutely fantastic for a photo shoot! Oooh, I can’t wait to shoot there! ^_~
Day 24 - A letter to your parents
Dear Mom and Dad,
I may be a pain in the backside but only because I’m still growing up and learning things. I love you for imparting all the knowledge you know about life which you think may be useful to me in the future. I love you for saying you’d stop bothering but actually, you still will. I love you for forcing us to be better individuals. I love you for making me watch all the dicovery channel shows even though I hate them as much as I love them. I love you for trying all your best to make us happy and provide us with all our needs. I can never thank you enough. I love you. Always.
Love, Moira <3
Day 23 - Something you crave for a lot
Chocolate, loads of chocolate. Sweets, candies, more sweets and candies. McDonald’s Cheeseburger and Fries. Cake. Coffee Flavoured Icecream, Coffee Flavoured Cake and Iced Coffee. Dark Chocolate Meringue. Strawberries and Cream. Basically, all the fatty and sugary foods you can think of. I’m sorry, all I can think of is food everytime someone mentions the word crave. ^_~
Day 22 - What makes you different from everyone else
I’m 50 percent Igorot. The Igorots are the natives of the Cordillera Region of the Philippines. HAHA! I don’t only like fashion, art or music but also Math especially Algebra and Statistics. Well, yea, those are a few things. But seriously, everyone’s different from another being, right? But if you really want to know what makes me different from everybody, that would be, my DNA and my fingerprints. ~heehee ^_~
Help me choose a necklace for college?
Day 21 - A picture of something that makes you happy
I got this today, Allister’s new accesory, a 50mm f/1.8 prime lens. I already love it so much even though I’ve only had it for a few hours. I just can’t wait to play with it further, so amazing!
I gained and then lost. Hello new followers! /peace
Day 20 - Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
It’s just so hard to say, isn’t it? I mean, you just never know for sure. Who knows, maybe the guy I’m about to spend the rest of my life with is yet to be born? But whoever he may be, all I want is for that person to love me and accept me for all that I am. I want that guy to be the one to tell me that I look better without any make-up on, that he does not want me to be skinny at all and that he wants me all to himself until his very last breath. I see myself with a guy who’d smile and laugh at me when I’m mad, who’d have the courage to say ‘No’ whenever he thinks some things shouldn’t happen and who would cry infront of me to show me I’m causing him pain. Yes, I do want a real person, not some trying-hard tough guy that’s been shaped by his dad or friends. That is all. <3
Day 19 - Nicknames you have; why do you have them
My very first nickname ever was Aya, although hardly anyone calls me that now. Everyone from my mother’s side of the family addressed me using that name up until I was 15 years old. I acquired that nick when I was still a baby. According to my family, when I was a toddler, everytime someone would ask me what my name was, I would say Aya.
I also used to be called Pau when I was in highschool, actually a few people still use that name when they talk to me. It was derived from my second name Pauline. It started when one of my classmates started to use it and then next thing I know, everyone from my school would address me using that nick.
My latest nick would be Mo. I got it when I first arrived here in the UK because my real name was hard to pronounce for some people. Other names have also been created from the one-syllable Mo, like Moses and Moyi, you know, just for a laugh.
And lastly, my all-time, forever nickname is Moi. Obviously derived from my real name Moira, only you don’t pronounce the last syllable. Yes, people can be very lazy sometimes with pronouncing names.
I used to be the girl who was so insecure. I used to be the girl who was so shy and wasn’t comfortable in her own skin. I used to always wish that I was different, that I was prettier, that I would be one of those perfect girls on tv. When I was 15, I had a really bad acne problem, it hit me really hard. I hated myself for it. I also just arrived in England at that time and I felt like a total outcast. Everyone had perfect skin, long legs, nice hair, beautiful eyes, etc. But then, there were these girls that I really looked up to. They were my inspiration. They were the reason I pushed myself into overcoming my imperfections. A year after, my skin started to heal up and my self confidence started to kick in. My passion for art and photography also helped me understand that it is not so much about beauty but what it stands for that matters. I’ve learned to love myself since and appreciate everything that I have and don’t have. I hope other girls will too.