My 50mm f/1.8 died on me yesterday. Huuu! To be fair, I did drop it over a year ago. So this was bound to happen, sooner or later. Oh well! Just gonna have to work some muscle and earn the money to pay for a new one. /sigh

It’s funny that some people still recall me as that hiphop-talkin’-hipster-wannabe-forever-failing-photographer-slash-artist-17-year-old girl I used to be.

Although, I still am. Occasionally.

Always ending up feeling disappointed about myself whenever I look at other people’s work. It gets me all flustered and upset. Especially when it’s an amateur photographer or someone a lot younger than me. Given that I’ve studied art and photography for the last three years, I should have (at least) already established the very basics of work ethic in the industry. But no, not even any type of discipline or diligence exists in my so-called life. It’s also a shame that wanting a new camera has started to be my excuse for not shooting some proper imagery. When you think about it, I’m not even that bad a photographer nor an artist, just unbelievably lazy. Ugh! Crazy! There’s always an excuse for everything, like, “I can’t be bothered.” “My viewfinder’s fucked.” or “It’s too much effort.” Uhhh! Why am I so annoying? It scares me that in two years, I will be graduating. And if I stay like this, I don’t think I’ll ever get anywhere.

Last day to go around Venice today! Tomorrow, we’ll be flying back to England. It’s been such a nice and super chilled holiday. Need to prepare for the hectic and stressful week ahead very soon though. Gaaaahhh. Wish life was just easy-peasy all the time. No responsibilities. No worries. Just cruisin’.

Paris, London and now Venice! I am actually traveling the world! Can you believe it? Everything’s so surreal. I honestly don’t think it has fully sunk in yet that I have been to places besides my home. I’ve been surprisingly casual about it which I think is my brain’s way of coping with the amount of traveling I’m doing. Phew! So many train journeys, bus rides and flights to catch. And it’s not stopping anytime soon! Jumping on the train to different cities in England soon after we land back. Then my boyfriend’s parents are driving us all to Switzerland. And hello Egypt I go just before uni in September. Eeeep! So excited! Not gonna lie though, I’m living life in such a fast pace, everything just tumbles around and manages to fall in their own respective places. Weird. But yea, super blessed! n__n

Slowly teaching someone to photograph so I can post myself online. Hahaha! I love you baby. ^__~

My boyfriend and I arrived in Venice last Tuesday but due to lack of sleep and the stress caused by traveling, we decided to stay at our hotel for the rest of the afternoon. We did venture into town the next day but sadly, the awful weather did not permit us to enjoy the lovely city as much as we have hoped to. =’( Although today, our luck might just be a teeny-weeny bit better! The forecast says it’s going to be sunny with occasional showers. I really hope it does not end up being thunder and lightning again as it did yesterday. *crossedfingers*

Dope view from above!

Sup folks! How’s it going? Sorry for the non-update. I’ve been too busy packing and unpacking, traveling here, there and everywhere. Hectic summer is hectic, okay? So yea, I just finished my first year at university a few weeks ago then Jed and I went home to mine in Manchester for a couple of days before flying straight to Paris with my family. As soon as we got back to England, we hopped on a train the next day to Canterbury in Kent to see his family for a week before we leave for Venice next week. See, I told you all I have been doing is dealing with suitcases. Hahaha! So far, everything has been really good except that I hardly ever have time to go online and blog. I knew I wanted to travel but I didn’t realize I was going to be in this many train journeys, flights and car rides all in the same month/season. But anyways, we all just have to wait and see if I am able to find a way to blog while on the go. Please understand that this is all very new to me, like, the boyfriend thing, being in and out of university plus traveling so much all at the same time. Hurrhurr. Oh and also, I experienced my first ever meet-up with another blogger this week! Eeeep! Met Jenny (http://jsevilla.tumblr.com/) in town the other day as she too lives in Kent. Yeyey! Will talk about it on another post once I get the chance to write again. Okaaay? So, that’s it for now. Will try and post again, asap. Tatah x

I am back at home! Wooohoo! Left uni yesterday with the boyf and were now chillin’ in my house. Mannn, I’m gonna miss halls so much and loadsa people too! But hey, its summer! Off to travel somewhere in Europe tomorrow with le family and Jed. Yeyey!

Currently lying in bed opposite this guy and maaaannn, does he snore so loudly! Aha. To be fair, he was awake for 40 hours before he decided to doze off and now I’m the one doing an all-nighter. God, we’re such a weird couple! And yes, my boyfriend is always stoned. Haha! Nah, he just looks like he is; everyday, 24/7 high on life. ^___^

Really need to do my ironing and start clearing up my room. Leaving campus halls in nine days and moving back to Manchester! Asdfghjkl.

Went for a shoot around the campus nature reserve with Jed this morning and maannn, do I miss looking through the viewfinder! It’s been a while since I last held both analogue and digital, clicking away like there was no tomorrow. 3 hours of shooting, over 600 photos taken. Like I always say, one can never take enough photographs. There will always be something out there to photograph, always. It’s weird that I’ve forgotten about this, about how I can easily incorporate photography and art into my daily life. It’s as if, everything I learnt the past few years skipped my brain. Aha! But oh well, I can’t take back the days I left my cameras to accumulate dust. At least, I’m slowly getting back in the zone now. Hopefully, it sticks! Wish me luck! ^__^

Small Change, Big Difference

I need consistency,  the kind that keeps you sane. Or I’ll always and forever end up in a whirlpool. Not like that’s anything new but that’s not the point. Point is, I need a routine, one that’ll stick. Sounds boring but fuck, that’s what I need. ‘Nuff said.